I've been going through a lot lately...

And I feel like I've been saying that for over a year. Bordeaux is both a steep learning curve and an amazing opportunity for me, but right now I just don't want to deal with the challenge of learning a new language, the monotony of cooking and cleaning, the difficulties of French administration. Right now, I don't want my patience to be tested, I don't want to learn any more about myself and other people, I don't want to explore and I don't want to experience. 

I just want everything to stop, because I've been going through a lot lately and I've been saying that for over a year. And right now, I'm too tired to fix all of this by myself.